I haven't posted here in quite awhile. I only stop by occasionally. Last October 4th I lost Marci my love and best friend to cancer. I never thought she would go before me or that she would lose the battle even after she was diagnosed.
If you have someone in your life that you love, make sure you tell them every chance you get and never, never take one single minute for grant it. You just never know when the last time will truly be the last time. The last 35 years have flown by and even though we told each other often (sometimes several times a day) that we loved each other, I would give everything I own if I could hold her hand and look her in the eye and say "I Love You" one more time.
I know where she is and what she believed and that I will see her again someday, but the hurt of her not being here still lingers.
After 10 months, it still hurts
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After 10 months, it still hurts
Always try to be the best but, never think you are the best.
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So sorry for your loss.
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My deepest sympathies for your loss. Cancer is an evil, indiscriminate scourge on humanity.Dieselrider wrote: Tue Aug 05, 2025 10:33 pm I haven't posted here in quite awhile. I only stop by occasionally. Last October 4th I lost Marci my love and best friend to cancer. I never thought she would go before me or that she would lose the battle even after she was diagnosed.
If you have someone in your life that you love, make sure you tell them every chance you get and never, never take one single minute for grant it. You just never know when the last time will truly be the last time. The last 35 years have flown by and even though we told each other often (sometimes several times a day) that we loved each other, I would give everything I own if I could hold her hand and look her in the eye and say "I Love You" one more time.
I know where she is and what she believed and that I will see her again someday, but the hurt of her not being here still lingers.
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Dieselrider, I wish I could tell you that your pain will disappear tomorrow, or next month even, because it will not. But before you notice you'll feel better. Keep on doing the things that made you happy and visiting with the people you love. You are very talented, stay busy..
Hugs

Hugs
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I am so sorry to hear this. Tammy and I have both been through the ringer so to speak, and like you, I always thought I would go first, since I was the most sickly. Then she came down with 3 cancers, all at the same time, and it sure change my outlook. She is been without cancer now for about 4 years, and doing pretty good. We are all just on borrowed time.
Glad you checked in, but wish it had been with better news. You take care.
Gene
Glad you checked in, but wish it had been with better news. You take care.
Gene
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Thank you all. I'll try to stay more connected.
Always try to be the best but, never think you are the best.
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There is nothing I can say or do that will ease the pain you're going through right now. Only time can do that. I lost two wires wives due to my evil ways and drug fog ways. I also lost my one and only 36 year old son to a Harley Davidson crash.Dieselrider wrote: Tue Aug 05, 2025 10:33 pm I haven't posted here in quite awhile. I only stop by occasionally. Last October 4th I lost Marci my love and best friend to cancer. I never thought she would go before me or that she would lose the battle even after she was diagnosed.
If you have someone in your life that you love, make sure you tell them every chance you get and never, never take one single minute for grant it. You just never know when the last time will truly be the last time. The last 35 years have flown by and even though we told each other often (sometimes several times a day) that we loved each other, I would give everything I own if I could hold her hand and look her in the eye and say "I Love You" one more time.
I know where she is and what she believed and that I will see her again someday, but the hurt of her not being here still lingers.
It's now been 21 years since that terrible day when I got the phone call from a doctor in a Grand Rapids hospital telling me he was dead. The pain of that day has not gone away, but at least now I can think and talk about him without weeping.
It is gonna take years to ease the pain, but it will get better as time goes on. I suggest you know try to fulfill some of the items on your bucket list. Life can never override the effects of time for any of us.
LOVE will always find a way.
Dammit, I've done it again, writing about my son is still hard to do without my eyesight, clouding up with tears. Hang in there, my friend because it's the only thing we can do.
You guys stay safe and as happy as this life will allow.